Two Special Parents
A baby is born on a hot summer day, to two young parents just finding their way.
Their days passed quietly, no problems they’d see, and two thankful parents sat and rocked their baby.
Without any warning their baby took ill, and two frightened parents sat quiet and still.
The doctors were careful to watch what they’d say, and two tearful parents just held hands to pray.
Their lives took a tumble; their road took a turn, and two troubled parents had new things to learn.
Their friends’ lives were easy with runny noses and colds, but for two hardened parents life was not an easy road.
Their days filled with medicines, their nights filled with tears, these two tired parents lost track of the years.
With the passage of time, many things were to change, and two older parents let go of the pain.
Their child was different, her future unclear, these two wiser parents learned why they were here.
God searched far and wide, took care who He’d chose, His angel needed love there was no time to lose.
Two parents he found with courage and pride, He hoped they’d accept her through all kinds of times.
For two special parents are all this angel needs, to show her the love to grow and succeed.
There Are Times
There are times I sit quietly and wonder the reasons; there are times I cry out and question believing.
This child of mine I can’t comprehend; her mind so fragile there’s so much to mend.
There’s no one to answer the questions I cast; and nothing to stop me from blaming my past.
I’m caught up in feelings I never imagined; this guilt that I’m carrying is quite heavy baggage.
If only the rest of the world could just see; I’m doing the best with what’s inside me.
Baby Boy
I see love in your big bright eyes; I feel peace there during my dark times.
I see happiness in your smiles so bright; I feel joy when I look at you at night.
I see hope in the first steps you take; I feel pride at the strides you make.
I see life in you and all that you can be; I feel love for you in every part of me.
What I never knew before as a mother; you’ve shown me each day like no other.
What I felt as shame many times before; you’ve shown me to be so much more.
What you’ve done for me you will never know; you were born for a reason all those years ago.
When I Look at You
When I look at you I think about the way things should have been. When I look at you I think about the ways I must have sinned.
A beautiful child with an imperfect mind; a young mother’s dreams each day unwind.
There are days that pass without any tears; but more often than not the pain reappears.
With daily reminders of the way things ‘should’ be; in the faces of young girls growing happy and carefree.
When I think of you I wonder what the future has in store; a future so uncertain it pains me even more.
I used to dream of pom-poms, of ribbons and of curls, and all the many things that go with little girls.
That dream is gone and in its place is a future I’m unsure of; the path that I’m now taking is both frightening and unheard of.
When I look at you I also wonder why this has to be; why can’t someone else out there be better for you than me?
I haven’t always done my best,
I haven’t always wanted to.
I haven’t always shown it,
But deep inside I’ve loved you.
I know that with each passing day, I’ll find the strength I need,
To see you through your unique life and help you to succeed.
But please forgive the tears that fall when I look at you sometimes.
I’m only crying for the dream that left me years gone by.
Baby Girl
My baby girl;
My peaceful world.
Those big bright eyes;
Those innocent sighs.
That smile so bright;
That soul, such light.
The Beauty in you,
so easy to see;
The Spirit in you,
so vibrant and free.
A mother’s true love;
Forever a part of.
For Maggie
I sent my daughter to school today,
Not knowing the things that people would say.
She’s different you see,
Not like all the rest,
Even the pious she’d put to the test.
I sent my daughter to school today,
Not knowing the teachers she’d meet on the way.
Would they love her through all kinds of times?
Could they accept her in spite of her mind?
I sent my daughter to school today,
A teacher was there to light her the way.
A teacher whose heart was solid and true,
A teacher whose smile made the laughs come through.
My daughter is happy in school today.
Because of a teacher who knew what to say.
A teacher who taught her to laugh and to sing,
A teacher who loved her in spite of everything.
My daughter is safe in school today,
Because of a teacher whose love wouldn’t fray.
Because of a teacher who cared to the end,
And won all our hearts as a very dear friend.
My daughter’s in school again today,
But Maggie is not I am sad to say.
The answers won’t come,
The reasons aren’t clear.
But one thing’s for certain;
Her Spirit
Will Always
Be Here.
Today, Yesterday, Tomorrow
Today I saw you differently than I’ve ever seen before;
Today I saw you make your way all your own down the hall.
Today I caught a glimpse of the young girl you could be;
Today I felt a weight slowly lifted off of me.
But, yesterday I never thought I would see you in such light;
Yesterday I cried about tomorrow through the night.
Yesterday I felt the guilt and shame that you were different;
And yesterday what you couldn’t do brought tears and disappointment.
But, Today I know you can do so much more than ever dreamed;
And Tomorrow won’t be as frightening as it had once seemed.
Tomorrow holds a future that gets brighter every day.
Tomorrow you’ll be applauded for your talents and unique way.
Tomorrow I will look upon with joy instead of sorrow;
For the best is yet to come with the acceptance of Tomorrow.
Simply Misti
Someone walked into our lives, her name was simply Misti.
She started out a teacher, but left part of our family.
She chose to give part of herself,
To children that were challenged.
But with her special brand of love,
That never even mattered.
Each day her students saw her smile,
They couldn’t help but beam.
And with her hopeful guidance,
They couldn’t help but dream.
She treated them with kindness, Respect and Consideration.
She never let their failings change a teacher’s expectations.
She rarely saw a difference inside our little girl.
Instead she saw her beauty and her place within the world.
And so our unique little girl has blossomed to a lady.
Thanks to the love of someone dear,
Whose name is simply Misti.
The Knowing
I never thought I’d see the day she’d know that she was different.
I never thought I’d look into her eyes and see the anguish.
I never thought I’d see the day she’d know that she was different,
I never thought I’d see those tears and feel her pain so vivid.
I’d always hoped she’d never know the thoughts in people’s heads.
I’d always wished she’d stay a child in peaceful bliss instead.
But who can stop what’s meant to be and the feelings she has inside?
And who can save her from herself as she makes her way through life?
No longer a child with an innocent mind,
Her carefree childhood left far behind.
A woman now with soaring fears;
Insecure, anxious and full of tears.
Intense emotions that petrify,
A mother who’s lost to answer why?
The Woman
I see you smile and beam with pride.
I mask my tears and run to hide.
Who is this woman I see today?
That child of mine has gone away.
And, then, I think of how you’re not;
Those thoughts they leave me so distraught.
Because I know your life won’t be;
The same as mine has been for me.
I’m trying hard to just accept;
Your life won’t be what I expect.
And all I hope for you today;
Is for that smile to never stray.
In Her Eyes
In her eyes I saw a child, whose mother lost too young.
A child faced with hardships; a selfless journey just begun.
In her eyes I saw a girl; now a father’s left her side.
A girl without a home; left to sisters to reside.
In her eyes I saw a woman; working hard and never wanting.
A woman full of faith; trusting God was always watching.
In her eyes I saw a bride; giving so much love to others.
A bride whose selfless heart, would raise two orphaned brothers.
In her eyes I saw a mother; her greatest deed unbound.
A mother’s love unending, her purpose finally found.
In her eyes I saw a martyr, quietly grieving for her son.
A martyr who’d give anything to see that grief undone.
In her eyes I saw a grandma; bursting love from deep within.
A grandma loving life, through the laughter of her kin.
In her eyes I saw a soul, sometimes lost and full of fear.
A soul that didn’t know me, as I shed a silent tear.
In my eyes she is an angel; one that guides me down my road.
An angel who softly whispers, you’ll never be alone.
Finding Francesca 